너에게 미쳤었다

I don't want to stay another minute

I don't want you to say a single word

hush hush hush hush

There is no other way

I got the final say

PCD's Hush Hush cause I am seriously tired of people asking me on my every pimple there are on my face. If killing is legal, I would kill each and everyone who asked me of it. Or better yet, I ask them RM5 when they ask "kenapa muka kakak makin teruk?" cause explanation is tiring.

So today I went to SMIH's ihtifal and I helped out my mum on her food selling. It wasn't that tiring because I enjoy the company of little Nadia Hishamuddin. She is so bubbly that I really enjoy her company. She also bought me ice-blended. Thank you Nadiah=)

But the tiring starts to hit on me when my family and I went to my grandparent's house for a visit. Everybody, all my uncles and aunties start to gather around and attack me on how and why do I get so many pimples on my face.

So how do you reckon i handle the situation? Do I need to tell them that I spent 4 hours straight thinking and analyzing data for my PSM's Chapter 4, non stop? Or do I tell them that I had spent too many hours on the bed after I am done with my PSM? or do you think I need to tell them the wee hours I spent on the table studying?

The answer, none of the above. As rude as I may seem to be, I went up to my grandma's room and went straight to the bed

The thing is, I am very much comfortable in my own body.Be it if I am fat otr thin or my face have no pimples or it has a lot, it's MY BODY! It's sad when they only acknowledge outer appearance as compared to inner beauty.and It's evenmore sad to acknowledge that meeting families has been an upsetting event for me lately (an exception to nucleas family). And I am bloody mad with the boyfriend talk. I have told them for the 943854398543754856929834832752485 times that I HAVE NO INTEREST IN HAVING BOYFRIEND yet everytime I went online, facebooking to be exact, my auntie will open the chatbox and started bombarding me with speculation saying things like;

"ha, kakak buat ape online ni? Chat dengan boyfriend eh?" Habes, kalo takde boyfriend tak leh online la?

"Kakak chat dengan sape tu?" dengan Donghae

"Kakak ni bile nak ada boyfriend? Umur da berapa ni" Mak pun tak kesah, asal ek orang lain yang sibuk??!

"Takkan la kat utm tu xde lelaki yang kakak nak?"How many languages can you say "none of your business" in? Orang datang sini nak study, as decent and lying as that might sound, I have no time to went out and socialize. That's not me!

The pain of being a human is when people start to compare you with another human being that you are not very fond of. Detest!

But then i realize, every single thing is a test from Allah. To be happy is a test, to be sad is a test. And I know the reason why I'm facing this is because Allah loves me. I am happy to know that fact. So Mawa, be strong! Allah is by your side. I'm pleading to Him that this sadness will go away, this madness will be wiped out and this hatred will be gone. They are my family anyway and no matter what happen I still love them.