Because He loves me

and I want to thank You Allah for Your love that knows no boundaries....

Last Saturday, I went o Seremban with my mum and siblings. With a little time that we had, Alhamdulillah I managed to go to Pearl Haya, a brand of trendy muslimah Hijab that I have been planning to buy after seeing my aunts wore it. ThoughbI know it's expensive, might cause me arm and leg... well not to that extend but you know what I mean. Plus wearing this kind ofhijab I believe it'll make my life so easy since I am not a big fan of ironing clothes.

So my aunt drove us to Pearl Haya (that 'us' include me, my mum, Umar, Muhsin and my three other cousin). As I went inside the boutique, I saw a lot of eye-catching hijab. Very trendy, very nice, very sweet, just how I like it.

Soon, I found myself trying out a few. My mum was there but she was there not to buy but to inspect what I'm going to buy. I took a few. But my mum was shaking her head, her language of saying no.

Honestly, in my opinion, the hijab already follow the syariah. Throughout my life, I never wear my tudung above chest level. But mum has another thing in her mind. I was debating with her saying this is good but she still said no. So I asked the salesgirl if she had something bigger than this. So she showed me the Umrah tudung with the size of P11. But the thing is that one is custom made, no ready stock. I have to order and wait a few weeks before I get it.

The waiting.....

"Kalau nak beli biarlah yang betul-betul menutup. Bukan cukup2 makan je" My mum said.

It really hurts my feelings. So in the end, with a very heavy heart, I ordered two P11 size. Deep inside, I still have sincerity in doing that because P11 plus custom made plus the waiting cost me more the 150 for one tudung.

For almost 24 hours whenever I reminded by that, I will be in a bad mood and feels like not talking to my mum.

Astaghfirullah....

But then, Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Allah loves me... I had the instinct to continue reading the book 'Agar Bidadari Cemburu Padamu' where I left it. This morning, I happened to read this Ayah from Quran that was shared in the book

. O Prophet! Tell your wives and your daughters and the women of the believers to draw their cloaks (veils) all over their bodies (i.e.screen themselves completely except the eyes or one eye to see the way). That will be better, that they should be known (as free respectable women) so as not to be annoyed. And Allâh is Ever Oft­Forgiving, Most Merciful. (Al-Ahzab: 59)

Astaghfirullah....

I am such a bad daughter for ignoring my mum's concern. She told me that the extra charge I was paying is my extra effort to book Allah's Jannah. Astagfirullah...

Thank you mum, thank you for reminding me aboout Jannah and Hell.

Thank You Allah for giving me such a great mum. Alhamdulillah I am a Muslimah!

And alhamdulilah, Allah still loves me despite how sinful I am...

I was so far from you
Yet to me you were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from you
Ooooo Allah, you brought me home
I thank You with every breath I take.

-Maher Zain, Thank You Allah