Of things

Okay so the Family Day at Tanjing Bidara was not bad at all!

 As opposed to the worst worst worst PD's family day. (I cannot even begin how worst it was... but it all started with me having to woke up way too early and attending three different programs)

Zain enjoys the beach Alhamdulillah.

I try to insert pictures but due to slow internet connection, it seems like I can't

and this is Zain in the morning.

Zaid was trying to put him down but didn't want to let Zaid go. Must be because:

1) We woke him up too early for this

2) So he is too sleepy to play

3) and then he is too cold

4) hence, he gets all clingy.

Conclusion: It's not like Zain likes beach better than swimming pool but due to the above reasoning, it seems like he hates it.

I have to wake up early tomorrow but I can't sleep because I slept from 6pm to 9pm so I am not sleepy at all! Zaid is not around again this week because he helped to drive Baba to KL for Baba's class this week and umi and zubayr decided to follow leaving me with nenek, Yah and of course my little one. (You cannot take my bub away from me!). To make everything 'perfect', this Saturday morning, I have to invigilate TECS too. I think I will sleep all the way through the test if I keep this up but really, my eyes are not sleepy at all!

Right now I'm spending my time watching Korra, The Heirs and some random videos on youtube. 

Choi Young Do, your sarcasm in the drama is the reason why I keep watching this full of cliché drama (apart from the cuteness of Chanyoung and Bona

^_^)

Happy Birthday

Yesterday was quite a day for me. I woke up a little late than usual after spent the night before NOT sleeping but watched this drama called Heirs aka The Inheritors. Ah silly me! There too many cliche in the drama but Minhyuk of CN Blue and Krystal of f(x) are just too cute for words in the drama! They acted as lovey dovey couple. I watched that drama mainly for them. And since the drama has someone other than CN Blue's Yong Hwa as the opposite of Park Shinye. Okay that is too much info sharing, sooo unnecessary.

And yesterday was Baba's birthday too! Happy birthday to my awesome father in-law. Alhamdulillah I am married to a good man who has a good family and he was raised good because he has a good father!

Baba turned 58 yesterday Alhamdulillah. It was a simple yet intimate feast. Umi cooked nasi lemak, Zaid bought satay and I went to buy cake from secret recipe. We also invited our cousin, Atikah and Ajoi to come as well. It was time well-spent. I almso made a short speech. Talking part I am okay but to whom that message was meant to is a bit nerve-wrecking. It was for my father in-law hello! Of course I felt nervous a bit. But since talking is my virtue (acece), I managed to deliever my speech succesfully! (again, acecece!)

It's just sad that every other weekend Zaid is not around but hey, he is helping his father. Insha Allah he will get good deeds out of that. I miss him there is no doubt about it but if I sacrifice my needs to ease of other people's burden,May Allah bless me and my little family for the patience. 

Now, I want to go and sew something before I got to sleep

Again,Happy birthday Baba and Amni! (Amni was on 9/11 - tragedy wei birthday lu!)

The Hair

It's just plainly stupid if people think father is cheating on the mother is not affecting the children in any way.

Plainly stupid.

Very much comes from someone who is an idiot.

Ahh, why do I get myself into?? It's 3:40 am and I am still up, watching freaking 'Heirs' Oh my Gosh! And around this time I am so sensitive I could just cry watching lizard on my wall. And watching all these sweet scenes made me cringe but then it had me thinking I too did the same thing with my husband so the Korean producer might go "who's laughing now?"


Damn!

Broken glass

It is so weird to have your dream to be like three part movie.

In the middle of this family crisis, family tends to break up, rumor starts to spread and gossip flying around like bees. It is so ugly but that is reality and it is so ugly.

I was so close to my grandparents on my father's side, more specifically my grandad because my grandma favor my first uncle's son(s). The bond was beautiful. yes, was. Until this man who cheated on his wife and he started spreading bad things about everyone to anyone. It is so horrible because it means strong bond is being untied thanks to this man's well done job.

In front of me, my father was telling bad things about my grandparents while in front of my grandparents, he told them that his children are rude supporting the mother and interfere their marriage life (really dad, really???). So obviously my grandparents took his son's side and started treating us like a piece of shit. I can sense that the moment he changed his tone when he talked to me and when he talked to his other grandchildren. He used to smile at me and the last time I went to visit him, he throw away the money I gave him in front of my face. I am not happy with that. It was so bad that during raya, my grandfather refuse to shake hands with my siblings. I kind of glad that I wasn't around at that time because I was at Seremban. I'm heartbroken up until now.

I have long given up hopes of trying to get to their good side again because trust me, for as long as my father keep on telling them about our 'involvement' in his marriage (fudge), they will hate on us. Of course this bothers me a lot!

I cried to my sleep one night because I was so depressed that Zaid woke up because he heard me sobbing in my sleep. That was the night when I dreamt of fighting with my grandparents, they were yelling at me while I was trying to tell them the truth. My grandma has already turned her back on me, literally in my dream but my grandfather seemed like he made an effort to listen (reality check, my grandfather is the one who will not listen). That was it. I woke up with pounding headache.

A day before aidiladha, I dreamed of sitting next to my grandfather, he was patting my head and he said "Don't worry Mawaddah, everything will be fine"

Ya Allah, is that a sign?

After that dream, my siblings told me that my grandfather did not want to shake their hands when my father brought them to visit my grandparents during Aidiladha, that he was playing and didn't even want to look at them. My grandmother purposely asking my dad to 'kirim salam' to his biatch (saying her name) out loud, enough for my siblings who were already out of the house to listen to.

So I took it that it was just a dream.

Last two nights it happened again. I dreamt about my grandparents called me. They were asking me to send them to places. I felt weird but I just agreed on it. While I was in the car with them, I remember had a lot of fun and I laughed a lot with them.

So what now?

A dream is just play. I guess that is how mind reacting to the things that I really wanted to happened. But it will never happened. I believe in dreams that will come true if you believe but not this one.

Believe it or not, I'm laughing right now.



With some tears.

Much lesson

Doge syndrome has yet to die down. Just suck it up for awhile okay? 

 (Look at that sleepy face -_-)

We startes of this morning by jump starting Kancil since that little lad hasn't move for a while. We decided it's time to let it move. And by saying that, it simply means giving a task to Balqis so she will get the car moving. Now the car is resting at my mum's.

As of today, I decided to go with the most basic color, black and white.

Top from 29 Store, Tudung from Syazara and Chiffon Skirt from Scheefon.

The skirt is super flowy, I love it! 

The day was full of sharing session with the rest of Guru Bahasa. One thing I learned about being a Guru Bahasa in university is that we never get benefit if we are not lecturer. And sadly, with the new Pekeliling of GB in university, we have no benefit at all! It's like catch 22, no matter in what end, we are on the losing side of the battle. Argh I hate office politic, it sucks!

Another thing I learned today is teaching baby something new can be super messy. Like when Zain started discovering things around him, he will go everywhere and started to "mengemas", a nicer word for "to make mess". He will started crawling, pull of books from the stands, standing up in front of box of DVD's, pulling out all the CD,  finding one that he likes and scratching the cd by wiping the floor with the cd. But it makes me a happy mother when I realized he could do or say something new everyday. Today, he finally learned how to drink using straw. Alhamdulillah! End result?

So messy. 

The floor was all sticky thanks to Zain's spitting out the drink after he successfully suck it up. (Any idea to substitute the word suck?)

and then that cute face he made to say he is sorry.

Don't we learn something new everyday? For Zain, it has to be him growing up. For me, the experience of being a mum. Priceless one I tell ya!

Such fun

I wonder if it is possible for someone to buy phone via instalment. I mean, a phone is a phone is a phone. If you can't afford it, never opt for the pricy one. Just settle with the one that you can afford.

Haish.

Anyway, it's not a good thing to start this post with something negative (crap, I just did!)

I had fabric spree today!!! Mostly for Balqis though. That poor chap, she bought RM4/1m fabric to make blouse. She is just so lucky she has an older sister who is so obsessed with sewing nowadays so it's a good bargain for her! And it's just that our father never really care to spend money on our attire. I bought most of my dresses, jubah, pants myself once I got my scholarship money. Poor poor girl! I also bought some fabrics. really, just some. ;)
I will try my best to sew her the blouses and tudung. It can be very expensive if you buy it but when you know how to sew, you can just make it, even when it's not as pretty as the boutique standard. As long as you can save your money, nothing else matter!

Later that night, we went out to AEON. Been bugging Zaid to buy himself a new pants. Yes, you get that right. HIMSELF. I love my husband but he is spending to little on his attire. Most of his money went elsewhere like his online business, his investment and most recently, our new house (apartment more likely). I love him for always trying his best to support this little family of ours but I also want him to buy something nice for himself since he get the extra money (and a new phone too please dear! That buzzing noise from your iphone 3gs sounds so funny!))

Zaid did get himself a new pants but but but the real catch is not that, it's these

Awesome awesome The Avengers Shirt!

I am so so glad I'm married to a nerd, a geek. First of all, Zaid is such Batman fan. He read the comic. He was thinking of collecting figurines once but I don't know what happened to that dream of his. It was beautiful but on a second thought, with Zain, I'm glad he owns none. But seeing him all excited at the toy store is just so cute! We bought this shirts for a real good deal, 3 for RM100. How awesome is that!

I forgot to mentioned we were joined by my sisters to go to AEON. And this is the three of us donning Syazara's tudung. How Balqis is  not jealous seeing the Captain America's shirt!

 my little boy was walking to his Abi while Abi was clicking. 

Eversince he knows how to get up on his feet, he barely sit still. Oh wait, he barely sit still the moment he knew how to crawl! Alhamdulillah.

 I bet Balqis is enjoying this slide thingy a bit more than Zain.

Chak!

On the other hand....

Atiqah just can't stop! She kept on tagging me to pictures of doge's meme. I was laughing like mad in between male's pants and shirt. 

But the most memorable one has to be this 

Oh why oh why you just ruined that good picture of Loki, Doge!!!

Your choice

Your life is a matter of your choice.

Yes they are.

Never blame anyone for every choice you made in your life.

Like, when you decided that your marriage is a mistake so you decided to betray your spouse, eloped with another woman and keeping a secret. That is your choice. Never blame it on your terrible childhood. Never blame it on your parents for never treating you right. Never blame it on your wife for not giving you her all.

That was your choice. You have no one to blame but yourself.

My choice of today's outfit is pink. It's my choice.

Got my pink Haley top from Thepoplook.com Pink tudung from syazara.com and nice bracelet from FUN by Nana

I'm not really a pink person. I love green and I used to own a lot of green outfit (kurung, top, blouse, tudung. I even have the thought of buying a green car... not the color, the hybrid one). But after I get married, I realized colors are more than just green. Weird enough, to date, I bought a lot of thing, pink. Shifting of favourite? Am I getting older? (The answer to that is a big YES but I was just asking just in case you have a better idea). 

Nah, Who am I kidding? I love colors! and ever since I learned how to sew, I have broaden my fashion horizon. I rarely buy things online now unless I can't make them (Like that gorgeous Haley top that makes me look thin yaw!). 

That was what I wore in the morning until Atiqah walked into the office. We talked and laughed a little and mentioned how yesterday was the day of nothingness

"Did you realize why yesterday the day of nothingness?" She asked

"Why?"

"Because look at my office, I haven't even paint it yet!"

"Let's paint it now!" Said Mawaddah who is wearing that gorgeous Pink Haley top. 

Damn I forgot about my top altogether! Much forgetful. Such blank.

But who cares! We are going to paint the office!

Atiqah turned her kurung top inside out, I took a blazer, turned it inside out and we started painting

The color is soooo gorgeous right? Such taste!

But then we got so hungry after painting the wall, we decided to stop for lunch and solat. And I need to change to something crappy for this painting matter so we went to my house to change as well.

After a day of painting, this is the end result

  With one side blue and one side white

and we call it a day. 

Because cleaning up is something we decided to do tomorrow

Such hard. Much work. Like Nice

Me and my crappy outfit, totally my choice (Zaid said not crappy at all!). See how hard I'm working today? That wet spot at the bottom of my palazzo was the end result of cleaning the white spot of the paint from my pants

and that weird, bad English I have been using? I blamed it doge! Atiqah la ni! Hahaha

The Plan

So today I decided to cook, to sew, to clean the house.

Wait a minute, that is my usual work... minus the teaching part!
Anyway today is maal hijrah and since we have channel on the tv so we will the yearly parade (I wonder if that is necessary? Cause from this humble human being point of view, there are so much waste of money going on there but who am I to say anything huh?) so I decided to be a full time housewife. Sounds so poyo right? Nope my dear friends, nothing is poyo about that. In fact, if we do everything sincerely, Allah will reward us and the best part is if your husband is happy with, Allah will reward you even more! See how easy it is to gain good deeds. It's a shame we let it pass by us.

Anyway my plan today is to cook sambal ikan and fish soup. And since my husband wants to diet so there will be no rice. Just that. Not that I have anything to complaint! So easy.

And then I'm planning to sew a dress, a blouse, a skirt. I know, very ambitious of me but since Zain is at the babysitter for a few hours, I will make the best out of it. Otherwise, my focus is just for him and him. Zain Usama is my priority, no question about that. In between everything, I will clean the house, the laundry and whatnot.

Okay no more time to be wasted. Let's do this
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Oh wait, where was I?
Okay let's get it started! (I was browsing for some shoes just now. hehe)

Working on

I made them, outerwear;)

This is Monday of having no class. Since We have settled down on buying the house, now all we need of to think about all the furnitures we need to fill the empty space. On our current home, we just owned the bed set on the master bedroom, clothes and loads of books. Also of course some electrical appliances. Well, a basic needs for a home, we have it but a real cabinet and whatnot, we are still looking for it.

So there I was browsing IKEA's website for ideas. I also need to set the budget for all these furniture. The best time to buy it is during fair which will happen next week but since we are not moving till next year, we, well, more like me have to do just the survey with the thought of buying should be done after we move.

I can't wait for this move. It excites me that I will be able to put what I want where I want. Shut up you, I'm designing my home...

Okay, I guve up. I really need help from my besties Kak Amira who is an awesome designer, Atiqah, a brilliant girl who has a lot of ideas and Kak Niebah the OCD lady who will know where to put what.