scripted life-the wish that will never come true

There are things which I wish I could forget…
All those horrible memories I wish I could easily erase them.
But no, things are not as easy as that.
Things like that will never come true.

If you could turn back time, what are the things you wish you didn’t do?
There must be a lot right?
I wish I would just ignore those people with stupid confession to me.
I was never nice to accept them but to pretend to like them is the stupidest things to be done ever.
I never truly like anyone in my life. I just had one crush and that was it. And he is not a good guy either. And there was guy who I really respect him and Allah knows how shy I am in front of him but no, I never had any feelings for him. I just respect him because he is such a good guy.

If life is scripted the way you wants it, then it will be much easier but you will face a lot of hardship later because human do what they think best at that moment and have no intention of thinking what the future will hold for them. Thus, that was why some of things we planned didn't work out well because Allah knows what’s best for us.

If I have the ability to write script in my life, it will be like this:
I have done all those stupid things that I wish I never did.
I am afraid that my life will turn upside down.
But I am so lucky my family give their strongest supports when I lost hope and tell me to always pray to Allah like I did know have the stronger faith in Him. I got in a car accident and I hurt my head badly and lost all of my memories except having a strong memory of my family who has always been there for me, my best friend who is far but close to my heart, Jasmine and a few of my uni friends who are close to me (Falah, Farah and Putri and some others). Other than that I want to forget. My so-called friends, betrayer, those who I hate, those who had given me a bad impressions of them… oh there were so many. And the best thing was, I never regain them because I simply want to forget them.

But there you go; life is not as simple as that. That is why my mum keep reminding me, never once draw a black line to your white cloth. NEVER ONCE!
I felt sorry for myself for my ever stupid past. But you gotta learn that life is never puppies and rainbows. There are hardships you gotta face and learn from your ever stupid mistakes. As a Muslim, I am so lucky I was born with Allah as my God. His ever graceful love and forgiveness, I know, as long as I am good, He will always forgive me.
How much I love Him is incomparable for His love to me.

And yes, I disable comment and all those things that able readers to comment. I never read them cause it annoys me. So what if I am a SuJu and SoShi fans?