Celebrities Crushes

I am happy when my friends lead a great life, married to a great guy and lives in luxury.

I am satisfied with my life simply because I love what I have and I have what I love.

But the sudden talk about marriage scares me. My family knows my one and only crushes but I am not marrying that gut that is a fate. I know we will never end up together and he will have a better girl that not so innocent.

Other than that, there has been a name that is constantly mentions in this household. Though my family does not favor him but I don't know why they kept mentioning his name.

I am not ready, please don't force me. Falling in love is a painful process and it's hard for me to let go my first crush though he is a history means I no longer keep any feelings to him neither does he have any clue about my feelings to him, still, it takes me 2 years just to realize that whatever I feel now will have to wait on pedestal and that he will never like me. Not that I want that, it'll be scary if he likes me too and I will most probably hate him. I am never good enough for him.

But in this post, I am not saying that I used to have a non celeb crush and that I only have one but it's just to say, I don't want that feeling.

I have plenty celebrity crush^^. Let me list them down (this will not be good once I died and people read this stupid entry proving that I am not Islamic enough and I am ashamed myself but I am honest)

1) Shane of Westlife. An Irish man. When I was 12 till I was 14.

2) Koichi Domoto of Kinki Kids. Japanese guy from Kansai. When I was 14 till I was 16.

3) Cristiano Ronaldo, former Manchester United Player now in Real Madrid. A Portuguese. When I was 16 until I was 19.

4) Yamashita Tomohisa of NEWS. Japanese guy. 19 till 20.


and now....
Lee Donghae of Super Junior. Korean guy from Mokpo with heavy satoori. 20 till recent.

And yesterday I watched Wanita Hari Ini and they were discussing about love after marriage. It's funny how the MC's has very little knowledge about love as suggested by Islam.

p/s: Future Husband, if you happened to read this, I am hoping you are as good looking as at least one of them. Though I know I am not pretty, at least we don't bore each other...