This journey

My spiritual journey of Ramadan...

I wish I could share it but then it's way too personal for me to talk about it.

But I have to say, last year's ramadan was better although I finished reading Quran for this ramadan earlier.

May Allah allow me to seek the next ramadan.

And hopefully next year will be much better and easier to do ibadah, since I have you to remind me.

Cali girl is feelin' it

Accepting is impossible but impossible is nothing.

Can I, now, cancel everything? Because I'm afraid of this heart-changing.

Because once I felt we were very close but now, even when you are standing close next to me, I feel we are 10 miles apart.

I don't know if this is the feeling Allah gave me to keep myself away from you until the right time come.

I don't know if this fear that vibrates in my senses is just a way to draw us apart for awhile.

Is it that hard to love and understand? I'm glad I never experience that.

"In this California king bed
we're 10 thousand miles apart
I've been California wishin' on these stars
for your heart, on me
my California king"

I love how this song depicts the feeling of feeling so far away although you sleep on one bed.
It can be that way.
If you left any words unspoken because you want to take care of the other party's heart.

But here is a wake up call, HE WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND YOU HEART UNTIL YOU TELL HIM HOW YOU FEEL EXACTLY!

He is not a mind-reader.
Tell him how you feel.
If that destroys your relationship,
at least you did try to tell him how you feel.
At least you will know that he is not the one for you.
You might cry first but you will feel strong after a while and you can confidently say
"he's not worth my time"

Why so serious?

by: the girl who is too absorbed in understanding the lyrics from Rihanna's California King Bed.

Holiday

You never knew how things are until you experience it yourselves.

Hey, it's beautiful so stop complaining :)

"I cannot change the PAST, but I can let it go." FB status update, January 21st, 2011, 6:39pm

Ice

I wish I'm loving, caring, sweet, bla bla bla.

But I'm not.

Deep inside me, there is this ice princess residing in my heart.

I'm cold when I look warm.

I'm full of hurt when I look happy.

I don't know how to care when I look caring.

But worst of all, I don't know how to apologize.

I don't.

Sorry is word I blurted out for nothing, with nothing.

Is there anyone out there who is willing to accept me for me?

I guess not.

So this is goodbye.

Beautiful goodbye.

Bored so goodbye

You get bored after a period of time
you were eager to give the call but after some time you just let it go cause it is no longer exciting.
You were caring once
You tried to ask everything she did and how was her day but now you just don't seem to bother her at all.



Many men take their woman for granted.
They were so caring when they first chase you.
They were so caring when they first get you.
They were so unbelieveably sweet when they talk to you.


But after some time when the chasing period is done, when they get you for sure,
And just when you are deeply in love with him, time is up for them, they get bored and you get hurt.

Leave them. Girl, that kind of man will never appreciate you.







Damn it. Easier said than done.



(will edit the typo. Posting through phone and editing using it takes time)