Shopping Raya

Ramadan Kareem :)

Puasa tahun ni sudah berdua. Sebab satu dalam perut. Kalau kira suami tercinta, bertiga. Tak seperti puasa lalu, rasanya tahun ini lebih mencabar. Bayangkanlah dulu aktif, baca Quran 20 muka selamba je. Solat 8 diri lama-lama relax je.

Tahun ni tak wei.
Diri lama sikit, lutut pun rasa longgar.
Baca Quran non-stop, tekak dah haus, nafasa dah mengah.
Tambah pula sekarang ni tengah naik gatal-gatal sebab helaing affect guna bio-ever, tak boleh panas langsung. Nanti mula la muka merah, tangan nak menggaru leher la, perut la, kaki la.

Sungguh, dugaan hebat.
Tambah hebat apabila keluarga juga masih di atas jongkakng-jongket. Moga Allah permudahkan urusan keluarga.

Tapi dugaan ni manis. Buat aku belajar jadi manusia sikit.
Matang lagi.

Well, agak tersasar dari topik.
Tujuan asal nak cerita fasal shopping raya.
Haih baru fasa kedua rmadan dah cakap fasal shopping?

Eh eh, lek lu...
Shopping gua ni lagi best beb.
Tak yah jalan sebab bila jalan kaki lenguh, nafas mengah.

Ni lah antara nikmat Allah yang best...
ONLINE SHOPPING!
Pakaian raya telah disettlekan dengan jayanya melalui website Cala Qisya
Ni kalau rasa nak tambah lagi, boleh try tengok kat website best the poplook
Tudung? nak pakai yang segera aje kalau boleh. Yelah, kita dok rumah orang kan? Jadi try usha kat  Syazara untuk tudung segera yang labuh lagi comel.

Kenapa kat semua website ni?
Lemme tell you my secret weapon....
MURAH!
Semua yang kat atas ni ada pilihan less than 100 dan cantik lagi berkualiti.
Malas la kan nak jalan-jalan kat angsana pastu dapat baju mahal and kita pun terasa macam menyesal je beli.
Ni tak. Dah la tutup aurat, cantik, bergaya, MURAH. Hehe.

So, dah beli baju raya ke?

p/s: Kalau nak handbag baru sempena raya ni, try la usha sometime.com . Less than 100 and CANTIK WEI! I nak tunggu line "inspired by Maria Elena". Alah blogger kat peliks.blogspot.com tu. Kalau best, nak gak sambar se:)

p/s 2: Sila beli ikut keperluan ye dearies, bukan nafsu serakah. Setan takde so jangan diri sendiri plak jadi one.

p/s 3: Mana nak online cari baju Zaid saya ni?

Generasi BABO MEREKA

I want to stress on the word 'bitch' just because.

Serious.
Kau kata kami jangan campur urusan mereka.
Tapi meh sini kita sama-sama lihat.
Kami kongsi darah yang sama.
Kau kata kau ukhuwah.
Tapi hakikat dan realitinya siapa yang kongsi darah mereka.


Kami atau engkau???


Jadi di sini kita lihat siapa yang lebih layak campur tangan kan?
Itu pun KALAU KAMI NAK!
Masalahnya, KAMI Tak campur pun urusan mereka.


Kau tu yang sibuk campur tangan!
Apesal ek? 


Kenapa la kurang ajar sangat andaian kau tu?
Kenapa la biadap tak bertempat tuduhan kau tu?


Ukhuwah...
Yang kau dengar tu fitnah.
Bodoh. Itu je.
Itu je yang aku nak cakap sebelum ramadhan bermula.


Aku nak jadi lebih baik
tapi orang-orang yang kata 'Ukhuwah teras kegemilangan" ni buat aku nak termuntah dengan akhlak derang ni.


Muntah darah.
Muntah juadah raya tahun lepas.


Aku nak ignore mereka supaya tenang ibadah aku.


Kami yang difitnah sebenarnya tapi mereka suka lagi dengar cerita tipu orang yang kawin lari tu.


Hebat tapi bodoh.
Well, tak dapat nak elak lah kan?
Mereka suka dengar cerita orang yang lebih kuasanya


Jangan ingat kami tak pernah bukak mulut maksudnya kami menghasut.
Derita kami berbelas tahun siapa tahu?


Masa kami kutip botol jual kertas nak dapat duit lebih ada sapa amik pusing?
TAKDE! TAKDE!
Masa kami kena bersengkang mata jaga si kecik sapa amik kesah?


Dah la, aku malas berbicara dengan yang pekak tuli buta mata.


Aku janji pada diri nak ignore mereka sebab aku nak jaga ibadah
Aku janji pada diri nak ignore mereka sebab aku nak jaga baby dalam kandungan
Aku janji pada diri nak ignore mereka sebab aku dah ada suami dan keluarga lain untuk aku kisah


MEREKA takde significant dalam hidup aku. 
MEREKA tahu dengar fitnah.
MEREKA tahu tuduh atas fitnah.


Dasar babo lah, so aku tak heran.
Meh sama-sama ignore orang supaya boleh beribadah dengan tenang kan? 


Ramadhan Kareem

Jalang

Aku tau kau takut
sebab tu kau sibuk mengadu pada suami kau kan?
Dulu masa kawin lari ada kau fikir takut?
Mesti takde kan?
Sebab tu kau berani buat apa yang kau buat

Aku malas lah nak cakap title kau sebagai yang ambil hak orang
Ye lah, dah ditangkap 'basah', apa lagi kan?
TERPAKSA kawin.
Bahaha lawak lawak.

Takpe...
Nasib baik aku dikelilingi orang yang soleh disamping orang yang bodoh bangang dan tolol
At least bila aku rasa tersalah fikir dan cakap, pantas sungguh ada orang menegur

Tapi kau hanya dikelilingi orang soleh
namun kau tak praktik apa yang diajar
Macam mana aku tahu?
Thailand.
Terasa?
Peluk
Terasa?
Duduk sebelah tapi tak kawin lagi
Terasa?
Usrah
Apa kena-mengena, kau nak kata?
Adaaaa
Pergi usrah bagus.
Hubungan kau dengan Tuhan, aku serah pada Tuhan untuk adili
Tapi kau dengan manusia memang hancur.

Pandai amik hati mak bapak mertua tapi kau lupa yang lebih berhak...
Isteri pertama.
kau lupa perempuan, kau lupa.


Aku tahu Tuhan adil dengan rasa.
Tak kira kau dengan laki kau buat amal banyak mana tapi kau tak settle dengan manusia, syurga kau tersekat juga.


Aku pun dah sumpah taknak satu syurga dengan pencurang.
Aku minta maaf pada kau walau kau bersalah pada perempuan lain.
Kau lembut walaupun fake.
Kau baik walaupun baru belajar.

Tapi akhlak kau sebagia wanita memang menjengkelkan.

and MVs

I know I know I should be updating things like "Hey, this is my baby" "oH LOOK BABY BUMP" Yada yada yada


But No...
Now I'm going to let my inner fangirling shines. It has been deep down there for quite some time, not coming since... Nothing new about Super Junior (as in songs) But yesterday the new MV was released and guess what? Hangeng was also releasing his MV just a few hours after that... I mean, why? Competetion much? Even the title "Clown Mask". What was he trying to imply?

I like Hangeng don't get me wrong but his company has gone a bit over the top this time by releasing the MV around the same time. Oh Why?

Super Junior's Sexy, Free & Single (That's the title of the song by the way) is good. Too much autotune but then that is the trend nowadays. I am bias. I cannot listen to Big Bang's, 2NE1's auto tune (not to mention weird fashion sense like the clothes were being picked by the blind coordi) but I can for Super Junior. The auto tune did not overshadow the great vocal they own (Daesung from Big Bang hardly use auto tune--- and that was a random comment). I can hardly understand their English (like always) but then Donghae's sweet voice, Siwon ripped clothes, Kangin's face just simply make me think that "Oh, they do have good English" Bhahaha lying to myself now.

Check out the cool MV

and also Hangeng's Clown Mask

Not surprising at all to see Hangeng in blonde hair. He looked good during Don't Don's day donning that hair. And now most of SJ's members colored their hair with the same color, I'm starting to get suspicious that maybe during comeback performance suddenly we see Hangeng dancing among SJ members. Most of them are blonde anyway, it's hard to *not* notice right? ^^


I will update about my *poor* baby later (poor you darling mummy is listening to crap.. Sorry darling)

Sabar buat jiwa kusut

Yang namanya sabar
biarlah senipis kulit bawang, asal ada dari tiada
kerana yang tipis itu kalau ditarbiah bisa menebal
mampu menghadapi segala dugaan.
Bukan sedikit yang perlu aku terima
Tapi mungkin inikifarah dosa
Diuji pelbagai arah
yang jauh yang dekat
yang nampak yang tidak
yang dulu yang kini

Memang aku tak tahu apa itu 'dulu'
Luluh juga hati bila tahu
Mana tidaknya, segalanya nampak baru
Namun mampukah aku kata aku tertipu?
Tapi takdir ini untuk aku
Pasti ada hikmah apa yang berlaku.

Aku percaya pada janji Rabb-ku
"Allah bersama orang-orang yang sabar"

Wahai diri, sabarlah engkau
didiklah jiwa
mantapkanlah iman

Jangan kau gagal
Kerana jika engkau sabar
Kau akan dapat jumpa Tuhan
Dalam mulia hati dan diri

Nina is getting married ^^

I don't know how my sister felt when I first got married, when they lose me in the family. I know Balqis would be dead bored because I was the one to layan her whenever she wanted to go and since I have money because I work, she can simply asked me to belanja her stuff.

But now I think I know how it feels to lose your sister because she is married. My third sister, Sakeenah will get married this weekend and somehow I felt that I WILL be bored even though I'm married. Not that I'm bored because I'm married (love my life now) but I will be bored if I come home to Kempas and I know I will not hear her screaming voice and her mumbling and her loud laugh and her cheery personality or her endless tears when she cried. I will miss that a lot! But now I know at least if I go to Shah Alam, I have a place to crash in and she will cook for me (haha kesian Nina!)

I love her so much. I hope she will find marriage life as good as I have found it. She will be happy and I know Tawfiq will make her happy (and know how to control her for sure)

This is a tribute to my lovely sister.


Kakak loves you dearly ^^

On writing and life

Alhamdulillah. It has been way too long since I last updated my blog. It's not that I have lost interest in writing but due to the fact that I have too much in my mind and every single time I have the idea to write, my there is this a 'blog post' written in my mind and when the time came to actually writing it, I have no mood to write anymore. I guess I should carry a book like J.M Barrie's (Actually, more towards Johnny Depp) did in the movie "Finding Neverland" [awesome movie btw]

Anyhow, since it has been long, the shocking thing when I log in to my blog is that the changes in blogspot. It changes so much  that I hardly familiar with the feature anymore but slowly trying to re-discover everything back because I think I will write more now.

I know by now you know that I'm married right? Yeah, I made that obvious in my last post but do you guys know that I am also a pregnant lady now? Alhamdulillah. Please pray for me.

The pattern of people that I noticed when updating their blog is, if they are couple, they will update about how sweet their significant other is. after they get married, the life of marriage will be shared, on how beautiful it is, how wonderful it is. Then the pregnancy news comes in, they will start to talk about the morning sickness, syndrome of a pregnant mother and such. After they deliver the baby, the whole blog post until they next baby comes will be all about the baby. That is the pattern that I noticed. I was thinking if I am the same, if I will follow the same pattern at first but then since I hardly update my blog, all you can see is my posts in the past about how happy I was when I was single. Not that I am not happy now that I'm married to the right guy but it's just that, I don't know what to share anymore. Before this, when I want to write something, I just write it without hesitation. But it's different now. There are a lot of things I need to think of, to consider. Even AFTER I posted anything (for example, status on facebook), my husband would come to me and say

 "Now you have to think twice about posting anything. You cannot post just about anything especially about marriage and such. People will start to think we have problem with each other"

Thank you dear, I will keep that in mind :)

Yes, he is right. Now, I cannot simply post whatever that is on my mind anymore. It is not the same especially when now I'm sharing life with my (perfect) other half (korang kalau nak muntah hijau pun boleh. Haha) I am not complaining but I'm reflecting my action. To my defense, it's not that I posted without thinking before but since I'm not with anyone, I can just simply share my thoughts. I'm very frank with words, be it spoken or written. But marriage taught me that I have to be careful of what I say so I will not hurt him since he is the closest to me now. He didn't know me long, just 8 months before we get married. He might be hurt if I am too frank, trying to teach him to accept me for that but then you have to be tolerance. He is the kind of guy who is very gentle with words. I have to think how to say this and that so that he can understand my point and I will not hurt his feelings. He does that a lot with me I see.

That is marriage, you give some and you take some. You talk, forgive and try to forget. Life is simple.








What was my point again?

It's a love story baby just say YES:)

I got this question a lot...


How do I get married and finally said yes when I have been saying NO all these while? Answer is, Allah has that plan for me. I don't know him that well but from everyone around him, they say he is nice. I didn't take long to say YES. I don't know him for 5 years, 6 years like some people (couple?) do. I want to have a halal relationship. When he confessed to me, I told him to go and see my wali and he did not hesitate. So I present to you the timeline of my story in finding love...

1st April 2011 - I reported for work in UTM SPACE

5th April 2011 - For the first time I talked to him because I need to find out about my lesson. I just knew then he is my school senior.

15 May 2011 - Zaid messaged me on FB asking me to call him because he needed to ask about Sumer school. Hence the first call. For work.

15 May 2011 - Mak asked me to fill in Baitul Muslim's form. I did not say NO though my heart say I am not ready.

16 May 2011 - Zaid and I talked. Work, school, family, like a senior and junior of school.

19 May 2011 - Finally decided to do what mum asked me to do; fill in baitul muslim's form. Answers from me were all ridiculous.

Later that night: I called him to ask about should I bring iron at the camp (for the outbound program for Thailand summer school in Mersing). we talked longer than I expected.

20 May 2011 - Outbound Program for Summer School Thailand in Sekakap Mersing. Unexpectedly closer because of the program. He is like a senior and big brother that I'm really comfortable to talk to.

22 May - Got back from Mersing. Received message in FB. From Zaid. Saw the title. Relaxed. Read the content. SURPRISED!!!! So he was nice to me because he kinda like me? Can't believe it. I replied. I told him if he likes me please see my wali (bapak). And more surprising was that he sent it after we finished talking on the 19th.

23 June 2011 - Zaid's parents came to my house see my parents. Marriage was confirm through discussion. We got engaged. I was wearing black abaya and brown hijab. Nothing extravaganza. Because it was unexpected.

7 January 2012 - He is my husband. I am now a wife. The moment he said his akad, it was raining... So did my heart and my eyes.

This is my story and now it had became a love story. I learn about him more after we are married and I fall in love everyday.

A month into the marriage. Universal Studios Singapore. May Allah bless our marriage.

What happen to the baitul muslim's form? I never had the chance to send it. Because Allah sent me my soulmate before I manage to send the form. Alhamdulillah.

;')

Will talk about my marriage life later but now...

I just miss these guys!!!!

all 13 OF THEM! From Leeteuk to Kyuhyun...
Where art thou Kibum
Where art thou Hangeng
Where are thou Kangin

2011 bye

2011 goodbye

Allah gave me work, learn a lesson or two on life

And Allah showed me my soulmate, someone that I never knew, never care, never met before and never even think of but Allah gave me him for me. He is not even in my plan for 2011.

A new car is.

A new bed is.

A new house is.

But I realize none of that.

But the beauty of it all is I will be getting a car, bed and house when I am married to him. Thank you Allah for your grace and love