for awhile only

I feel bad for this blog. I always found myself rant about life here. But even when I declared this to be my territory, some still don't get it, they intend to turn my blog like theirs. And now I don't even have the heart, kidney and lung to read other people's blog. they are angelic, writing good stuff
"your blog is not ilmiah. write something more ilmiah will you?"
they are great, writing religious stuff
"your blog is lagha"
they are the best.
hey guys, you guys are the best. congratulation. I know some don't read my blog and even delete me from their blog list/affiliations just because my blog talk about my life simply. But I never really care about that. and Don't want to judge anyone either. Go do your own stuff and I'll do mine. I'll do good even without those so called alim people. I have my family to protect me. my father good words that I still listen to because I know he always means well. My mum who says good advice that would enter my heart straight away.
I am not condemning my own people but they tire me out. they told me to be someone I could not be. Why don't you accept me for who I am just like how I accept you people as you are? I still wear tudung and it is still labuh and I never wear bawal (no offense to those who wears it), I go to usrah, halaqah (IDC, I still want to use the word. what so controversial about the word usrah? stupid people never care to study the word). I never went out at night. I just have my besties around me. I don't flirt and I don't even know how. I have no boyfriend, not ever. You guys simply judged me when you say "Mawaddah, we never judge you". yeah, never judge, my ass! I'm harsh with words and will always be this way. You can't take it, I don't care.

With this post, I hurt your eyes but not your heart right.

Sorry
















is the word i have no intention to say