I'm incoherent these days.
incoherent as far too many events have hurt this frail heart of mine. And as broken as I am, little fail could make me frustrated. But so far I have never been down on my knee to cry. (Girl don't cry, be K.R.Y.). I was on the verge of crying but I did not cry. As much as I wanted to, I just can't.
and When I said, too many events, it's just mean too many. But I thanked Allah for testing me this way. Even when I'm facing difficulties, I refuse to give in. Even when works starts piling up, I refuse to give. and even when friends turn their back on me, I refuse to cry. I need to move on. Although some recent events has left me wounded but I will cure it, give it the best medicine. And I love myself far too much that I think getting married is a hassle since I'm going to share my heart with others. I am selfish and I know that. I Love myself and I know that. I don't want to hurt my heart over little stupid event.
And things happen for a reason. Even when no one wants to be a helping hand, I don't care. Even if i have to this on my own, I don't mind. and even I have to bear the consequences all on my own, I don't give a damn. All I know, I need to be strong. Even to face this all on my own, I have to be strong. the bottom line is...
I want to have a normal life that's all. I don't want to live my life with regret.
