Real life drama: I'm not up to it.

Wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart

Even how I tried... I felt like it was meant to fall apart. I swear human being make mistake. As much as I want to believe apology did not work, I blame to no honesty

What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time

Yesterday I felt everything was precious. But because of mistake, even it was a small one, human are after all imperfect. they choose to carry the small hate rather than cherish the beautiful years. TALK is the only solution out of a problem. But now I think it's time to move on...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I am so agree with the part I have to fall to lose it all. right now I feel like I am falling. Maybe it is the sign that I'm going to lose it all? I have seen the signs sent to me. Before I got kicked out, I will get myself out first. Nobody force me. I'm not up to silence. I used to talk. I have problem, I talk about it. If I don't talk, I will get frustrated. If it's not with my mum, it'll be with my besties. Having grudge is nothing but a mean that tear down the relationship. I don't want to doubt it but I feel like I'm losing it. And I feel like we are drifted apart. Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry. IDEK what to do. I am losing half of my mind now.