Cold hearted man (or woman in this case)

I think I have lost my mind lately. Due to so many works, I am so tired and weary and stays up only to get nothing done. It hurts my feeling, and I am hurting myself too, Pity Mawa...^^

I will jeopardize myself if I continue being like this.

But that is not the point of talking (or writing in this case).

I want some people to get out of my life for good, free me from their grasp. I am nobody's baby (except for my family). I don't want to in-debt to anybody. It takes a lot of strength to go through this and I am not going to do this twice, Allah knows I won't go through the same thing twice. I won't be living in the "Kitaran Bodoh" when I know each and everyday is another promising day to be a better Muslimah. Let's pretend that we don't know one another when our path cross. It will make you and I feel so much better. Trust me, one day, you will thank me for that.

and I have yet graduate (which I will be in two months time) so please people, I am to the point of begging you to stop all the talk about marriage. I have fears of that. I am not good enough to be anyone's wife that is for sure but I just don't want to continue with the talk. I have grown tired of it. I am not ready to be a wife, I don't want to be one... yet. Please stop! it gives me so much pressure than the one I already have to bear on my shoulder...

"Hanya Engkau yang tahu siapa aku, tetapkanlah seperti malam ini, sucikan diriku selama-lamanya"

I love HIM...