Vacation D3

Assalamualaikum.
I was supposed to had this up long ago and after that I will tell you about my aunts engagement but who can't resist laziness? Well at least I don't, for certain time only.
So here are pictures of my 3rd day of the vacation which dated, almost a month ago^^

In the morning, we were supposed to have a Tazkirah session by Ammar but due to fatigue, we decided to change it into a quick family meeting.

My baby brother, Abdullah Umar^^

and the pool that people use to swim
we don't abuse the facilities, we were just "exercising"

Heart and Soul^^

ON SALE!

After that we went for Mak and Bapak long lost friend back during their undergraduate years in California's daughter wedding.I don't know it such a disappointment when everyone there, well the women wear big hijab but I know none of them. See, we lost the touch of ukhuwwah there already. Even we wear the same clothing, it's like we have a total different fikrah, even the understanding is the same.

2hours later, we went back to KL. We went to Aquaria and Umar never stop spazzing about all the fishes there. I also met "it", my Nemo^^.

Oh well, it's Ammar^^

The Piranhas. Too bad we missed its meal time.

Umar was sticking with me or Nina like a glue the whole time. Though he was fascinated, he is still scared. Too much TV is bad for your kids because he was imagining the possibilities of the mirror to break and spills its water and all the fishes will be swimming around and eat him. Well, he is honestly all bones, I don't think the fishes want him. Maybe I will be the preyTT. The Amazon fishes are, Subhanallah so big!

One for the siblings. Missing 1 person which is the photographer^^

and a redemption for Amni for not being able to have siblings photo with us^^

Alhamdulillah!
Alhamdulillah Allah for this lovely family.
to be under Your guidance and love and to have family like this.
I couldn't be more thankful for all Your blesses upon me.
Hence O' Allah, the Most Merciful, the Most Gracious,
Forgive all my sins, in the past and in the future.
I can't begin to count Your blessings and Your love for me and my family.
Thank You O' Allah, for I only have You.

Fahrin Fahrin *sigh*

From Berita Tengahari NTV7

"Scha juga menafikan dia meminum minuman keras kerana baru baik daripada demam"

WHAT??????
Abes selama ni minum la? Kalau tak demam selama ni minum la? Istighfar panjang masa dengar cite ni. Bagus Fahrin putus dengan dia. Memang tak bape nak berkenan dengan si Shca tu. Fikir-fikir balik, nape la dia putus dengan Linda Onn dulu? Suka sangat derang dua tu. Tapi da jodoh tak panjang apo nak dikato.

okay this is like, the first time I ever like a Malay Celebrity and he had no luck whatsoever with girl. But I hope the curse will go away and he finds himself someone who is good for him and not a celebrity and doesn't like to go out and not a party girl.

I have things to rant about that I will keep that to myself.
and this is how I met Fahrin. I fooled my sisters by saying I met him at Shell and I even showed picture, this picture^^

Susah sangat ke nak tinggalkan Facebook?

Semalam, masa aku sedang mengunakan internet, Ammar datang sebelahku.
"kakak, cepat sket kak. Ammar nak buat Facebook"

"Eh, asal lak? kan da tau tu boikot?"

"Tapi {} kata tak boikot. Dia kata memangla yang buat facebook tu Yahudi tapi dia tak menderma kat Israel"

"Eh, asal lak? da tentu tentu dia tu Yahudi, takkan la dia tak nak derma kat negara dia. Masa Lubnan kena serang tu, Facebook bukan popular pun masa tu tapi dia dapat derma 70% untuk penyerangan tu"

Ammar angguk kepala dan diam.
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Banyak persoalan yang timbul tentang facebook. Bila keluar kenyataan yang facebook tu boikot, ramai yang ragu-ragu. Semua takut hilang kawan. diorang tanya

"Asal Boikot lak? cane dia bole jadi boikot? cane si Mark tu derma pada Zionis keuntungan dia?"
"Cakap la macam mana bila kite klik tu jadi derma?"

ada juga yang bagi kenyataan
"Kalau gitu tak payah la guna internet kalau semua kena boikot"
"ala ramai kawan la, ramai member lama, takkan nak delete cam tu je"
"facebook senang, user friendly, senag nak sebar dakwah"


------OKAY--------

Mari kita kaji benda ni satu persatu dari sudut logik akal. Mark Zuckerberg is a jewish. Secara logik akal, dia sebagai orang berketurunan Yahudi mestila nak buat sesuatu untuk negara dia. Dia sekarang dah terkenal, disenaraikan sebagai ornag paling berpengaruh di dunia di tempat ke51. Keuntungan tahunan Facebook mencecah 5000Million setahun. Mark disenaraikan dalam 100 manusia terkaya di dunia oleh majalah Forbes.

Come on la man, kalau McD yang tak dipunyai oleh Yahudi boleh derma pada Zionis, ni apatah lagi orang Yahudi tu sendiri. Adakah teknologi canggih Facebook tu da butakan mata hati korang? Ana tak nak cakap bagus la tapi orang yang approach ana berkali-kali suruh boikot mcd starbucks tu antara orang yang paling kuat menentang pemboikotan facebook. Kononnye Facebook ni tak menderma pada Zionis laknatullah. Ingat senang ke ana nak tinggalkan minum Starbuck tu? Oi, tu fav tau tak. Tapi demi menyahut seruan Illahi dan membantu sahabat di Palestine, walaupun secara tak langsung, ana tekad tinggalkan.

Masa adik ana bagi mesej fasal facebook tu boikot sebab dia guna cost per click untuk dapat keuntungan, tang tu jugak ana delete. Ana akui ana ada beratus kawan dalam tu. Kawan yang ana tak rapat in real life pun bole jadi rapat lepas guna facebook. Tapi ana tak nak lagi bersengkongkol dengan kejahatan zionis tu, lantas tanpa fikir dua tiga kali, terus je delete.

Ana berjaya cakap pada rakan2 seusrah dan sahabat baik ana. Namun tak semua ada kekuatan jiwa macam ana.

Persoalan di sini pada mereka yang guna alasan dakwah untuk guna facebook, itu je ke cara yang ada? Blog? Friendster? Myspace? Lagi la budak kat myspace tu semua gonjeng-gonjeng, asal tak dakwah pada mereka? kenapa nak guna Facebook yabg rata-rata korang da kenal in real life orangnya? Tak payah la nak menegakkan benang yang basah.

Dan pada mereka yang manjadikan kenyataan ini sebagai kata-kata balas ""Kalau gitu tak payah la guna internet kalau semua kena boikot""
What to say, korang memang la emmm... geram. Pisau kalau kita guna untuk potong buah, jadilah ia berguna namun bile ia digunakan untuk membunuh, ia jadi satu threat. Sama jugak macam internet, ia bergantung pada macam mana korang guna. Seriuosly cara korang bagi reasoning macam la umur korang ni 5 tahun.
Walaupun Majalah al-Islam tu kadang-kadang tak betul, namun bila ana baca artikel tentang facebook depan bilik Dr. Masdinah, ana rasa tersentuh. Betapa banyaknye sumbangan facebook pada zionis dan korang yang gunakan facebook tu dah jadi "jundu" mereka.

Susah sangat ke nak terima hakikat yang facebook tu boikot? Tak boleh ke samakan Facebook tu macam mcd? susah sangat ke? Kalau korang bole berhenti makan, kenapa korang tak bole berhenti klik? Kalau macam tu, ana bole la pergi starbucks sebab ana tau starbucks tu profit dia tak bagi pada yahudi, bukan nye yahudi punye pun. Lagipun prosedur nak hantar duit pada zionis susah sikit melalui perniagaan.

ANA PUN BOLEH JUSTIFY LA KALAU ANA NAK!

tapi ana tak.

Kenapa?
Alhamdulillah, Allah bagi ana kekuatan luar biasa bila kena hal-hal boikot ni.

Antara yang ana dapat baca tentang Mark ni di Wiki ialah, di wiki, tak disebut langsung yang co-founder of facebook tu adalah Yahudi. Tapi bila ana teruskan mencari lagi, banyak maklumat yang ana dapat.

http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20090613044539AAA75Gv
http://www.allfacebook.com/2008/03/my-interview-with-mark-zuckerberg/
http://www.jewishjournal.com/thegodblog/item/facebook_and_the_jews_20090519/
http://www.google.com.my/search?q=jewish+and+facebook&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8&aq=t&rls=org.mozilla:en-US:official&client=firefox-a
http://www.stormfront.org/forum/showthread.php?t=634347


and post ini, dengan mengunakan kata ganti diri sebagai "ana", of course korang tau untuk sapa ana tujukan post ini. Jangan datang pada ana menerangkan dan menunjukkan diri tu boikot tapi ada facebook. Sorry la pada orang yang justify facebook tu bole pakai, ana da hilang respect pada korang. Disebabkan korang nak guna, korang keluar la fatwa sendiri. WEML.

Vacation D2

WARNING: Lots of pictures ahead. You might not want to see this if you are using a lousy connection. It might kills your internet.

Salam.

So about our day two of the vacation, it was more fun than check-in. Our day of sunny Saturday of November 28, 2009 started with solah subuh. We, Ammar and I planned that this subuh prayer should be done in jama'ah but because of room separation where boys, girls & parents acquire rooms of their own, it's hard to gather everyone in one room. Hence we decided that we do it separately (because we, girls only brought one telekung for luggage purpose^^ because bapak only allows three luggage.) Bapak assigned Nina to give tazkirah about "Obeying parents" from a Hadith.

After that we got ready and headed down for a delicious breakfast. It's hotel so the food varied from cereal to bread, from malay food to western.
(sorry Ammar, it wasn't me. it was your face=))

After that we straight away went out to the nearest LRT (Quality Hotel was a good place for stay as everything from shopping complex to lrt station are just a few steps away. So I recommend this hotel).

Don't blame us as we were amazed by the H1N1 free hands sanitizer cause we NEVER take public transportation in Johor together as family... I don't even know how that is related.

Our destination was KL sentral actually but bapak change the venue so went to Titiwangsa(?) IDK to check up on the bus. Sadly there is no package for Genting. They only provide regular bus there. And because we are so determined to have this package as it's cheap (only RM39 for Genting Skyway return ticket+outdoor ticket+return bus), so went to to KL Sentral and that meant another LRT, Putra whatever. I swear it was tiring but it was a good experience at the same time, don't mind the sweat we gather from the journey. But sadly, crying in the centre of the world as Ammar and I discovered that the next bus to Genting is at 3PM. It's not even 2PM, it's 3PM. What are we going to do if we arrived late? We can't barely play anything, and if it's rain, it'll be worse. So after standing for awhile, took a deep breath and the oxygen starts circulating normally again, we decided, that we will go to Genting, no matter what. we took another round of LRT, Monorail Putra bla bla bla and walk back to the Hotel...

We'll go there… by car.

This is a tired faces while waiting

And the journey

Beautiful right?

And the waiting again

see, the sea of human

But we made it, Alhamdulillah finally, after 2 hours of waiting^^

It was nerve-wrecking that Balqis squeaked and was holding on to me the whole ride. and I made Muhsin cried for scolding at him for asking question like "Macam mane kalo tali ni putus? kite mati tak? tinggi ni"

I am so thankful to Allah cause He made this possible. See how He plan out things for you when you think your plan did not work? Allah will always give a way out as long as you tawakkal to Allah!

So here, from this point onwards, I will let the picture do the talking… with some words of mine^^

Viking

Yup, it was soooo cold. you can see it for yourself, how the fog blurred the vision of the pictures but alhamdulillah, it turn out well♥.There are a lot more than these bunch but I have to select, other wise your bandwidth will be exceeded and the picture will never come out.

and tip, for a very long journey that requires walking around, do use Crocs. it will ease the pain on your feet. I use mine, bapak & mak too. Nina doesn't cause she said she wants to keep it. and that calls for another tip, if you have good footwear, USE IT!

P/s: I did tell you I met Fahrin Ahmad. He was like, my ideal, only Malay celebrity that I really adore. You know how he is an ambassador for Shell now. That was where I met him. Gonna let you see the picture on my next post^^

sweet Memories♥~

Some tips for online shopping

Salam.

Nowadays world is so easy that for any changes or latest news, everything can be found right under your finger tips. That is what I have been doing (and I know most of you have too), enjoying the world right under our nose without having the need to go anywhere. Lately, I have found my addiction in online shopping. It's easy, fast, no time wasted to go to shopping mall and meeting people. You can enjoy shopping in the comfort of your own home.

But don't be fool by how easy things are for you. Some websites are fraud. So to prevent that, there are some steps that need to take into measurement.

1) Check whether the website is authentic or not. Read the testimony of the product, the customer and the buyer's comment. All web that really sells has testimony from their customer. Otherwise, my advice, do not buy anything, or at least let someone else do that first. You don't want to pay hundreds and cry for the money that you will never get back. So be very careful on that.

2) If you are planning to buy clothes or apparel, make sure you know your size and check web's the apparel's size. Usually for apparel, they will provide information on the length, measurement etc, not just the size. Don't buy them just because they are pretty. Your eyes can deceive you if you don't bother to check. Remember, virtual shop is different from real shop. You cannot try and return back if it doesn't fit. So make sure you check your size.

3) Shoes are my guilty pleasure and the offers online are much better than the one in shop. You can get original Nike or Jimmy Choo with much cheaper price. So you have to know your size. Most online shop that sells shoes provides you with Vincci's size. So don't worry if you don't know your size (which is impossible cause how do you buy shoes in shops, not even online if you don't know your size right?) just visit vincci and try the shoes there, pretend you want to buy one and memorize your size. That way, you have no worry about buying shoes online.

4) Buying international make up product online is never a problem! But make sure you know that the product genuine. Read testimonial of the product. A good online beauty parlor will try the product first and let you know what they think about it, giving a review of the product. Also read user's testimonial of the product.

5) Paying method. This is the most important thing. For international website, they accept credit card or paypal. But for someone who is "overly rich" with no credit card and no paypal, I will check the payment method above all else. Local online shops accept money transfer method or bank in. so what you have to check is what bank they are using for you to bank in the money. Make sure the branch of the bank is nearby your house. After you bank in, make sure you KEEP THE RECEIPT.

6) You can even buy foods online! Don't trust me? I bought a very delicious cupcake for my friend's birthday at a very reasonable price and they even have delivers too! But you have to make sure a few things before buying it. What are the rates for throw in delivery? How much do they charge for the delivery? Comparing shops also a good ideas because some have a good design and delivers anywhere but some have a limited delivery place. (extra tip: for Johorian, just google cupcakes in Johor Bahru)

7) You MUST HAVE THE PHONE NUMBER OF THE WEBSITE'S OWNER and all of the online shops provides with that. Try to message them once to see whether the number is still in use or not.

8) Make sure the date is recent for each items posted to make sure the shops are still working.

With that being said, it's easy to shop online. Don't forget to visit and order my mum's chocolate cake now available online. For any occasion! And my mum is a trustworthy person, my mum will make you the best chocolate cake! Visit my mum's blog runs by me here! >click me<

I hate Celcom Broadband!

With what they claimed to be the lowest rate in town, Celcom Broadband offers you the slowest speed in town and the smallest usage limit of only 5GB each month. You will enjoy their service especially when you are downloading something at it suddenly stopped at 96% with 6 minutes to go and pictures that are fail to upload.
p/s: Goodbye celcom broadband. I'm changing line next year.

Vacation D-1

Salam.

I wish I could share with you every single sweet thing I experience during my short vacation. But every single was worth to remember but can't be described into words because some things meant to be wordless but a beautiful memory to cherish.

The day started on the first day of Aidiladha. After Solat Sunat Aidiladha, we went back for awhile to clean up the house. Too bad I had stomachache that morning made me go to no eating option as further eating planning will send me straight in the toilet and spending hours in there^_^. But everything right then was boring so I'm just going to skip that part (though I am dying to type^^) So I'll just share with you my experience of having to accompany Ammar on our 4 hours journey to KL. Mum had to accompany those who never been on plane before to give them the chance experience to ride/board whatever you may want to call it and they were Umar, Muhsin and Amni.

I could never get sleep because;

1) I pity Ammar. If I sleep, he might be sleepy too and it'll be dangerous since he'll following my bapak who drives carefully when Ammar is behind him. ( He even warned Ammar not to over take him)

2) I have to pay attention at his speed and remind him not drive too fast or too slow or following bapak too close. Hey it wasn't choice but a reminder for life. Plus along the road to KL, I had to take an ear-piercing phone call to remind me to remind Ammar not to drive too fats. And it was also a precaution. Actually I don't mind speeding but safety first. After all, preventation is better than cure.

We reached KL around 7. After performing solah, I accompanied bapak to fetch Mak, Amni, Muhsin & Umar at KLIA. It was fun listening to their first flight experience. They (minus mak) were so excited telling us stories about it. From flight attendant to meeting Chef Wan on the Airport, it was all a fun story that will put a smile on your face as you listen to them^_^.

And Umar said "Bapak, lain kali nak naik MAS lagi eh"

That day was also the last episode for Nur Kasih. I don't know, I wish Adam died but Nur not to married Aidil if Adam is dead. But the ending was a bittersweet ending for me. Oh, I watched this last episode in this restaurant which has a VERY BAD SERVICE. The food was delicious, now that I can't deny but it took them two hours to serve the food.

How should I end this day? Having to share bed with Balqis while Nina had a queen-sized bed all to herself? Trufax that was. I was so tired and went to sleep right away after dinner (at 11pm) while both of the girls stayed up for Counter Strike.

No picture as I am lazy to snap one^^

Oh, and check out mak's blog for her chocolate cake. It is still new & developing, shall add a few more items and it's ready on business! Now it's already ready too physically but the blog thing is not. If oyu are interested in ordering one, it takes a message away for a delicious chocolate cake! http://homemadechocolatecake.blogspot.com/

& p/s: I met Fahrin Ahmad^^ LOL Tell you more on my next post

Melentur Buluh Biarlah Dari Rebungnya

Salam
For me to get really excited about updating blog is when I change layout. I feel great seeing my page all green and new.

Tough phases, even had to change my url for awhile to get away^^

Yesterday, my little brother Amni was assigned by mak to teach the two little ones to recite Al-Quran. While they were busy getting the pronunciation right, me as the kakak busy taking their picture because it's cute^^

Muhsin, instead of reading, he is looking at the camera. Yah! read your Quran!

Umar is reading while Muhsin is... avoiding himself from...

Yes, you see it, Amni si kaki pukul!

After reading Quran, and it's not even that tired, they were caught

laying down &...

make a good use of the things that was used to hit them to play it^^

And someday when they grow up, what will this household be? Oh fret not, Nina will give my parents a grandchild and I will be Auntie Mawa... Imunin^^♥

I am not even a pro of this picture taking business but I feel good seeing how well it turn out to be, like a pro... Or something like that^^

p/s: Guys, are you fasting today?
Berpuasa pada hari-hari tersebut atau sekadar kemampuannya – terutamanya pada hari ‘Arafah - . Tidak dinafikan bahawa puasa adalah di antara amalan yang terbaik dan ianya adalah pilihan Allah Ta’ala sendiri sebagaimana yang dinyatakan di dalam sebuah hadith qudsi : “Puasa itu adalah bagiKu dan Akulah yang membalasinya, dia meninggalkan keinginan nafsunya, makanan dan minumannya semata-mata keranaKu”. Dari Abu Sa’id al Khudri Radhia Allah ‘anhu berkata : ‘Rasulullah Salla Allah ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda : “Tiada seorangpun yang berpuasa pada satu hari di jalan Allah melainkan Allah menjauhkan dengan puasanya itu mukanya dari api neraka sejauh tujuh puluh tahun” (muttafaq ‘alaih). Imam Muslim Rahimahullah meriwayatkan dari Abi Qatadah Radhia Allah ‘anhu bahawa Rasulullah Salla Allah ‘alaihi wa sallam bersabda : “Puasa pada hari ‘Arafah, saya mengharap Allah akan menghapuskan (dosa) setahun yang lalu dan setahun yang mendatang”.

Take it from here

A well-thought plan

We will go for our first ever planned vacation this weekend! So can't wait! As compared to before, this time, everything is well planned, from hotel's booking to plane ticket, everything was planned beforehand. Even the place that we are planning to go too. Though it's not like we are going out of the country, it's just KL (duh been there thousands of times) but this time it's going to be different cause it will be like, discovering KL? I don't know, we'll see about that this weekend^^

and because bapak just bought a car, we will no longer cramping in one car like a mackerel in can^^. It will be more comfortable to travel using two cars now^^. Alhamdulillah, may Allah ease our travel.

nope, it will not be like this^^

a helping hand^^

I went to BP yesterday for a program where my bapak gave talk about "jati diri". So I followed him and kind of helping him. LOL. So, I let these pictures do the talking. After all, a picture worth thousands of worth.

too tired

with the siblings

when bapak gives instruction

kaki tido... that's right!

& we will walk on the right path forever

my SOUL

I remember the last time I did this, I got something different

You Are a Hunter Soul

You are driven and ambitious - totally self motivated to succeed. Actively working to achieve what you want, you are skillful in many areas. You are a natural predator with strong instincts ... and more than a little demanding. You are creative, energetic, and an extremely powerful force. An outdoors person, you like animals and relate to them better than people. You tend to have an explosive personality, but you also have a good sense of humor. People sometimes see you as arrogant or a know it all. You tend to be a bit of a loner, though you hate to be alone. Souls you are most compatible with: Seeker Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Blogthings: Learn Something Surprising About Yourself

Okay, so I am surprised myself^^

Celebrities Crushes

I am happy when my friends lead a great life, married to a great guy and lives in luxury.

I am satisfied with my life simply because I love what I have and I have what I love.

But the sudden talk about marriage scares me. My family knows my one and only crushes but I am not marrying that gut that is a fate. I know we will never end up together and he will have a better girl that not so innocent.

Other than that, there has been a name that is constantly mentions in this household. Though my family does not favor him but I don't know why they kept mentioning his name.

I am not ready, please don't force me. Falling in love is a painful process and it's hard for me to let go my first crush though he is a history means I no longer keep any feelings to him neither does he have any clue about my feelings to him, still, it takes me 2 years just to realize that whatever I feel now will have to wait on pedestal and that he will never like me. Not that I want that, it'll be scary if he likes me too and I will most probably hate him. I am never good enough for him.

But in this post, I am not saying that I used to have a non celeb crush and that I only have one but it's just to say, I don't want that feeling.

I have plenty celebrity crush^^. Let me list them down (this will not be good once I died and people read this stupid entry proving that I am not Islamic enough and I am ashamed myself but I am honest)

1) Shane of Westlife. An Irish man. When I was 12 till I was 14.

2) Koichi Domoto of Kinki Kids. Japanese guy from Kansai. When I was 14 till I was 16.

3) Cristiano Ronaldo, former Manchester United Player now in Real Madrid. A Portuguese. When I was 16 until I was 19.

4) Yamashita Tomohisa of NEWS. Japanese guy. 19 till 20.


and now....
Lee Donghae of Super Junior. Korean guy from Mokpo with heavy satoori. 20 till recent.

And yesterday I watched Wanita Hari Ini and they were discussing about love after marriage. It's funny how the MC's has very little knowledge about love as suggested by Islam.

p/s: Future Husband, if you happened to read this, I am hoping you are as good looking as at least one of them. Though I know I am not pretty, at least we don't bore each other...

So much for Islamic Movie=/

Just a few days ago, I managed to watch "Syurga Cinta" (yeah, finally!), the movie that was said to be an Islamic movie. Well, what can I say I say other than these people try to make fun of the religion? They are claiming it to be Islamic when truth is none of the elements are relevant to the real Muslimah that they are trying to portray. Whatever they are drawing there are absurd and doesn't make any sense at all.

This is my review of what they call to be the heaven of love that each of us must have, "Syurga Cinta"

1) The producer, director or anyone related to the film making obviously never live in the actual world of a muslim. They never know how to contact with the real muslimah. In this movie, it seems like to get woman wearing hijab is so easy, it's easy to bring them outside of the house and to send them home so late at night and with parents being all okay about it. That is their myth and tale. Reality check, it's not easy for real muslimah who keeps her ikhtilat to go out and to date even with the presence of this little "adik". And real muslimah doesn't go out so easily with a guy. If they ever been in the world of Muslimah even for awhile, they will understand that a girl should not go out with a boy accompanied by little child who rarely lingering around them and send the girl home late at night.

2) They try to portray that very girl in tudung are a good muslimah and have all the wisdom and talking about it like they really mean it. Reality check number 1-not all girl in tudung quiet understand why they are wearing tudung and some of them even did sin worst that those who did not wearing tudung. I am not saying that you should not wearing tudung but if you wear tudung, understand by heart why you are wearing it. That relates to reality check number 2 which is majority who wear tudung do not understand Islam totally. Even the hijab in that movie does not follow what was thought by Islam teaching which is to wear it until you cover your chest.

3) I really like how they use a beautiful quotation but they way they use it is not real. It seems…. Fake. Well, what am I expecting? This is movie that involves acting and acting involves faking a characters.

4) At the end of the movie, the guy proposed to her. Did you see how he proposed to her? SO NOT Islamic! What kind of Islamic proposed that requires the guy to get down on his knee and ask the girl's hand in marriage with ring? That is so NOT Islamic! Whatever happens to "merisik"? And for a single girl, it should go through her parents (or in this movie's case, her grandpa), not like this! 1^stly, this is western way of proposing. 2^ndly, she is not a widow or divorcee.

5) And the beginning of the movie, showing scene at the club with women wearing something like nothing, dancing that involves heavy touching and drinking and smoking. What was that??? Those were so inappropriate to be shown to little kids. I was so embarrassed that I skipped that part as I was watching it with 8 and 10 years old my brothers. Okay, that was on the CD I can definitely skip, what about those who bring the whole family to cinema? Obviously, they, the film maker, did not put their head totally while making the movie. They should learn from Western where they really study the environment, the history. Like how they made Kingdom of Heaven, they really study the characters of Salahuddin Al-Ayubi. I really want to ask the producer, did they study the image, characteristics of the real, total muslimah who practice religion totally? Later they will claim Islam is rigid when the truth of is, they are the one who refuse to study Al-Quran, how Allah wants protect a woman's dignity not the way they are depicting.

This movie honestly lower down the value of a muslimah who practice Islam in total. They honestly have no respect to those who really practice the religion. People will think muslimah is stupid cause easily fooled and have no self respect for without difficulty, fell for a guy just because he wants to learn about religion.

Bak kata orang melayu, terhutang diri, tergadai body.

Unrelevant at all…

Will edit this entry

Destiny

It should not be like this. I wish I have the power to really update everyday like how I did before but now, I am just plainly lazy. I have the time and considering I can't go one day without on-lining, I can update but I am just lazy. Plus, the way I write it's not like before. It's a whole different style. I read back my past entries and I was thinking I was evenmore mature back then as compared to now. Now, it's a whole loads of ranting and whatnot. I don't want to be like that. I want to be thankful.

And Yesterday, I went to English Camp for STF students as facilitator. I only get a few hours of sleep before the camp and I was tired but the camp was a blast. The students were so energetic. I had to be MC for opening and closing ceremony. Of course I was so unprepared so stuttering a bit there during the opening but improving during closing ceremony.

and whoever, all of them, who wrote this behind my back, like literally, Thank you! You guys made my day, immensely^^
One said I am talkative and the below one said I am quiet. Well, truth is, I am talkative when I speak in English and more quiet when people around me use Malay. I don't really have a good comeback in my own mother tongue and I don't speak that much. Hey, I am not showing off okay. (It's not like anyone read this anyway so who care if I really have the intention to do so. But I am not and do not). And hey, someone said I am adourable! (adorable).... so cute~

Currently listening to Park Bom

Okay, so my plan of getting away was a success. But this is internet after all. World wide web. The name itself suggest how global this blog could go. Sooner or later, they will find out about it eventually. And it makes me wonder how long before they find out about it.

But the holiday is finally here! Am so not talking about relaxing cause I have tons of things to do and the list, sadly keeps getting longer. To-do list is increasing and I haven't scratch out any of it yet as, obviously, I haven't done any of it… yet. But I am planning to and I'm getting there.Support me people! (echo~ cause nobody is reading this blog…gladly^^)

And lately, there was this event, it kept on coming back to me like a bad memory it supposed to be. I try to forget my past, things that put me into embarrassment, into the stress and all. For once, I really really hate expectation. I am no angel, which that much is obvious. But the bad memory, I wish I could go to hypnotizer and wipe it out of my mind.

I remember went with my mum to this wedding of my senior. And there, I met a girl whom is my junior and she is my sister's friend. (Okay this is getting complicate. Let's just put it this way, she is my sister's friend and also my junior in high school). Okay the story goes way back in 2007 where she and the rest of the world thought her brother was in some sort of relationship with me which is sooo not true.and I try to talk to her causally, asking where was she planning to go after SPM and all and she was ignoring me. Gosh that is just so damn rude! And there she was being the role model of the school. Seriously WTF. And her mother, I bet she has told her something about it, I don't care whatever story her son and daughter made about me to her and I am certainly have no feelings on getting to her good side at all, she was looking at me like I was… not human. And of course I feel my pride has been ripped out just like that. Okay, they might be rich and have big house and all but manner? No… serious cakap la kan, masyarakat yang kita cuba didik ni, memang bermasalah. Konon nak bina ummah tapi perkara dalam hati pun tak settle. Sudah la! Just think back about it makes me all obnoxious about it.

And there are things that annoy me lately, the story about my sister. I think her friends are a little too detestable. I hope they will go out of Hidayah soon. The 대박 things were they say things like

"Kalau pun kiteorg couple pun, kiteorg akan clash before PMR. Sekarang ni nak main2 je" Bodoh! Kalo gitu asal korg couple bangang???

"Kiteorg dapat komen yg cakap kiteorg murah. Asal plak korg nak cakap camtu? Kiteorg bukan buat benda tak senonoh" say, having more than one boy at one time doesn't make you a bitch? Cheating on your mum to go out with your numerous boyfriends doesn't make you a bitch? And couple and breaking up over the reason of bored doesn't make you a bitch? Oh yeah, if those do not, maybe you are a prost then=/

Gosh, this world! even k-pop is such a drama nowadays.

And I never really greet my reader… simply because… I don't want to have one.

running away

Just finding way to get away. Till how long, I don't know

I think I can stop

Been ranting a lot lately. Vent it all to this blog wasn't a wise thing to do but when depressed, I could go against the normalcy rate. Hence, it led to the endless ranting and complaining like I got nothing better to do, like I have no maturity to face it a like a big girl. But here's the thing, I might have the age of a woman but honestly, I am not yet a woman. Nor am I a girl. I am just a bit more mature than a girl but not all mature like a woman. So, there you go, my opinion of life and I am five.

I wish things would go smoothly but yet stress kept on attacking me. I really really need a holiday. And a lot of praying. I need to. Put my mind off the world, go beruzlah like Rasullullah PBUH did and just get myself closer to Allah. Right now everything is a mess and I really need to get myself close to him so I will get back on track and be istiqamah on my relationship with him.

And I have stalker nowadays… and it is getting annoying when people call you and hang up with no words. Well, if that person just wanna mess up with his/ her bill, not that I give a damn about that but go bother someone else with no life. I, FYI have a life even though it's not all about puppies and rainbows and butterflies and ring ding dong and whatnot, still I HAVE A LIFE!

Cheh, ranting again. I need to put a big fullstop to this.

Oh and to people who have been saying I have gained weight, I just wanna clear things up, YES I HAVE GAINED WEIGHT SO SHUT UP AND LET ME HAVE MY LIFE. Your comments won't make me any slimmer. I can hate people too. Yes I do. But don't make me cause I don't like it one bit. You have your life, I have mine, kthxbye.

Full stop mawa, real full stop…..

No more ranting period.

Go away with the winds

Screwed.

Like never been screwed before.

STOP READING ME!!!!!

Principle

Principle

Principle

Principal

Yeah yeah I get it wrong.

Gosh that is not even acceptable.

You are a studying English for God sake. WTH you get confused with these two (among thousands other)????

(Scolding myself)

This is suck suck suck!!!!

(like I care whoever reads this. I suck. So what? Everything is killing me right now. I want to stop studying. Do nothing. Be no one. Set myself apart from the world. stop dealing with human. What is happening to me? My self esteem, where are you. Just because my ESP suck does that mean I should stop doing this? Someone kill me………. Yeah Mawa, that is not a problem solver. )

Colorless and just clueless

SPL – Si Protokol Loser

Yeah, I think that is what we are. The program at the Kampung sure went well on the surface but the drama behind it was terrible. And like always, I am the person who likes to be on the neutral side. Though carrying SPL name has some sort of taboo in it, it sure sent me to the cursing side when I heard people being a no manner, uncivilized people, giving a weird stares, like I am some sort of weird creature when I am more human. Honestly, the arguments were a joke. If people learn to be more tolerate to each other, I don't think things like this will ever happen. It's tiring to have resentment in your heart. I have thrown mine on my way back here. Bye bye resentment, hello internet killer assignment & PSM

And I just realized I suck to the max at writing academic papers. I should be a novel writer instead cause I like to imagine stuff.

And the sudden need to go back home……..

Bye bye my friend. Cause I don't want to meet anyone.

Klaka

Manusia ni klaka.da susa baru nak doa.

Da susa baru nak ingat Tuhan (ta kira la ape agama pun)

Kalo tak, gembira mcm ape.

Bila da saat2 genting, baru nak cakap nak buat something betul2, baru sibuk nak amin2. Kalo ta susa, agak2 doa tak?

Kalo ta susa agak2 nak ingat Tuhan tak?

Tu la manusia.

Malas je nak cakap….

Bila dag ado baru sibuk nak cakap, "orang teraniaya makbul doa"

Eleh, baik sangat ke ingat Tuhan nak makbulkan doa?

Reflect2 la amalan tu dulu.

Malu la sket,amalan ciput tapi nak Tuhan makbulkan doa.

신데렐라

She is a girl

With too many shoes.

Yet she wears it all

And loves it all

She is the girl with too many shoes

Though she owns two feet

She still has it a lot

This is the story of a girl with too many shoes

When she is sad, she went out to buy shoes.

When she is under a lot of pressure, she looks at her shoes collection.

Other girl has hubby while she has babies.

And her babies are her shoes.

Now who is the girl with too many shoes?

That is me

I am that girl

That girl with too many shoes.

1/3 of what I own. The other 2/3 are at home.

Work…like seriously!

Buying marks. For each one ringgit is equal to one mark. If that is how things are being measured, then it'll be; 67 for books+10 for symposium+30 for the charity under the KPM name that we have to pay because the sponsor's money was "lost"=107. That is a definite A plus. So if this lecturer planning not to give us A, then he'll be sorry for sure. I'm going to write to the paper and complaint. Come on, now we talk about minister going to be there, press are going to cover this event and what not BS they are throwing at our face yet no money to give the hold this event??? Dream on. I am going to participate okay but I want A.

They are a joke seriously.

No More FB & Words to stalker

Stop searching for my facebook. I no longer own it. I am serious about boycotting now as long as I have the power to do so, the strength to do so, I will do it. I try to be strong with my decision. I hope it'll help when Allah asked me what is my contribution in helping my Palestinians brothers and sisters, I have something to say because I really did it. I am not strong to enough to and fight for them. This is the little thing that I could do.

And for those who tried to stalk me, thinking I am interested in having a relationship of love, sorry sorry sorry (while doing the Sorry Sorry dance), I am really not interested. Don't try to use marriage as an excuse. If you dare to disturb me when I say I am not interested, that is a concrete proof that you are not a civilized person. Don't force me. Don't even try to please me. If you are not Donghae look alike or own a duck voice and sing like you talk and own a jerk personality like Ustaz Akhil Hayy,who uses religion as an excuse, don't even try me. I am so not interested.

[and sapphire blue is my fav color]

Worries

I have worries. It worries me to death. Like how I need to finish my PSM. Like how I need to face my lecturer for my sickness, telling him the reason I have been skipping class. Lately my head is not well and my stomach continuously to be in pain. I don't know why. But my mum said maybe due to raya's foods and I need to give my stomach a rest by fasting. Maybe. I hope nothing is serious about my stomach. My head on the other hand…. It kept on being in pain. I cannot take panadol at home, there'll be too many people giving out free lecture about how it is not good to take panadol when my head hurt, how it'll be part of our body and we will be craving for it but that is something I can't help myself. When we are sick, we have this tendency to take medicine and for me who hate seeing doctor, taking panadol is the fastest and easiest way to relief the pain.

My worry came in today as my lecturer told us to drop the subject if we failed to have 20% attendance. I was scared because unlike last semester, I was really sick. But what should I tell him? What is my proof? I don't know. But one thing that I am certain of is that I WON'T EXTEND. I HAD ENOUGH OF FOUR YEARS HERE!!!!!

mother-daughter talk

Mak kata
"kakak mungkin dapat lelaki yang lagi muda"

kite kata
"kakak tak suka lelaki muda walaupun muda bulan"

Mak kata
"kakak bukan matang pun"

kite kata
"kakak suka ketawa je"

kite kata
"mak kakak nak lelaki hensem"

Mak kata
"iman lagi penting"

kite kata
"hensem pun penting gak"

mak kata
"omputih kate beauty fades"

kite kata
"iman pun mcm roda"

mak tanya
"abes mana lagi penting, hensem ke iman?"

kite jawab
"obviously iman tp nak kena ensem jugak"

mak cakap
"sape lelaki yg kakak ckp ensem tu?"

kite jwb
"tah.... mcm tak de je"

mak kate
"ha tu la masalah kakak. nak cakap org ensem pun payah"

kite kate
"betul ape! susah la nak cari yg ensem"

mak bg statement
"eleh, mcm la dia tu lawa sgt"

kite kate
"kalo tak lawa pun anak mak gak"

mak cakap lagi
"abes laki korea-korea yg kakak minat tu ensem sgt ke?"

kite jwb
"mananye! derang tu cute, xde istilah ensem pun kat derang tu"

mak pun da penat agaknye
"ha yela2. mak doakan kakak dapat lelaki yg soleh, yg terima kakak seadanya, yg bukan kaki pukul, yg bukan talam 2 muka..."

"yg ensem"

"eh mestilah. mak taknak muka menantu mak x ensem"



at last she gives in. That's my mum for you.

Nilai seutas tasbih

I had a tough week last week. It felt like I was coned when I first learn I was actually a participant in a camp that I joined. I felt like I wasn't been clearly informed and I thought I was framed. So after dumping my bag, I ran straight to my mum who by chance and by fate happened to turn back to pass me my phone. I cried and told her how I felt betrayed and it wasn't supposed to be that way. My mum listen and she told me

"Ma kfaham kakak. kakak kena sabar. Allah memang bagi kita ujian bila saat kita decide nak berubah. tu semua sebab Allah sayangkan kita. Allah nak uji kekuatan kita and nak hapuskan dosa-dosa kita yang lalu. kakak kena sabar. mungkin sekarang kakak rasa direndahkan. Mak pun pernah rasa dulu. Bapak pun pernah rasa"

and then I rant on I don't want to go cause I was still emotionally unstable and my mum further told me

"tak pe kakak. Kakak pegi je. Kakak ikhlaskan hati. Mak nak kakak pegi. Mak nak kakak pegi sebab Allah, sebab program ni adalah satu jalan untuk dekatkan diri dengan Allah. Bukan sebab kakak tu (referring to the one who asked me to go), bukan sebab lain. Kakak pun yang semangat nak pegi program ni kan? kakak sanggup tak balik sebab nak pegi camping ni. Insya-Allah, ape yang Allah susun tu baik untuk kakak, baik untuk agama kite, baik untuk segala-galanya"

I still cried but I stop complaining. Then I asked what if I feel like I am holding grudge towards that kakak?

"kakak kena berterima aksih sebenarnya kat kakak tu sebab kakak tu yang bawa kakak ke program ni. Dia bantu permudahkan jalan kakak untuk dekatkan diri dengan Allah"

And I felt good. But still deep inside, I am sad. and I asked my mum, why do I still feel sad. I did not realized how proud syaitan laknatullah was at that moment, thinking that it has succeeded in making the daughter of adam mad and hold grudge towards her sister.

"sampai sana kakak solat 2 rakaat ("tapi kakak tak bole") kalo cam tu berzikir banyak2, berzikir and istighfar, minta Allah ampunkan dosa"

and I asked her for tasbih, the one in our car cause I know my mum likes to use that one while she waits.

"amik tasbih ni" she took out tasbih from her hand bag. "ni tasbih mahal ni, anak murid mak yang kaya bagi. mak suka tasbih ni" (Of course she was joking about the student part. my mak is very funny, she wants me to luagh=))

at that time I held my tears. My mum gave me something she loves, something better, something closer to her, something she uses even more often than the one in the car. I kissed her cheeks and get off the car, took my bag and boarded the bus. In the bus, I cried harder. Not because of the earlier reason but because of my mother little scarifice that seems little to other but a big one for me. My mum has been sacrificing since she delivered me in to this world. She sacrificed her life for me back then and still as a mother give me something better.

I cried and asked for ALLAH's forgiveness for having a stupid thought, for failing to be a husnudzon person, for fail to see what is good and what is bad, for being selfish. I asked for HIS forgiveness....

In the end, I had fun with the program. I learned more about the history of Islamic World, how Islam used to rule 3/4 of the world. and I realized now our responsibility as a Muslim. (though the way the person present sent me in the dream world most of the time but the content of the program is gaegood^^). I made friends too and we are bond by Allah through this program. See how beautiful it is, the plan arranged by Allah?